the only way up is down

THIS IS QUITE MOTIVATIONAL. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. 

in caelo et in terra

De Profundis

Los cien enamorados

duermen para siempre

bajo la tierra seca.

Andalucía tiene

largos caminos rojos.

Córdoba, olivos verdes

donde poner cien cruces

que los recuerden.

Los cien enamorados

duermen para siempre.

De Profundis

Those hundred lovers

are asleep forever

beneath the dry earth.

Andalusia has

long, red-colored roads.

Córdoba, green olive trees

for placing a hundred crosses

to remember them.

Those hundred lovers

are asleep forever.

Federico Garcia Lorca

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MOSTLY MARGUTTI was beautiful. I don't know how to write what I felt. The pieces were delicate and passionate and transcendent. That is all. They were sung with love. I thought this would have been my first concert, but I'm still in the "new guy" limbo which is strange and frustrating. Besides, I think I have forgotten how to sing. Losing something that's understood to be permanent is a terrible and lonely ordeal. I wish I could find someone to talk about it and, by the delight and amusement of mutual recognition and empathy, we would laugh the debilitation away, away where it will never come haunting us again.

compliments

I want your flowers like babies want God's love 

Or maybe as sure as tomorrow will come 

(Iron and Wine - Fever Dream)

syntax
by Maureen N. McLane
and if I were to say I love you and I do love you and I say it now and again and again would you say parataxis would you see the world revolves anew its axis you

from http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/20461

bread

I don't know what to write about anymore, because nothing is interesting and the proverbial corridor of emotional nullity still stretches into infinity (nothing about this has changed), disappearing into a point so dense with melancholy that its idea collapses into itself over and over again. The perpetuity of action within inaction is strange and horrifying because it destabilizes our paradigms of experience. The idea of permanent solitude and stasis is terrifying, and yet it's something that I have to confront.

BTW I'm in this video:

3 song mixtape

March crazy fun mental breakdown

March:

1) MOSTLY MARGUTTI

2) MELIZO

3) YALE-NUS APP

4) USP APP

5) TRAINING FOR IPPT

6) TRAINING FOR SOME COMPRESSION RUN THING I CAN'T BELIEVE I SIGNED UP FOR OH WELL YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE

7) TRAINING FOR ADIDAS SUNDOWN (+ LOOKING FOR PPL WITH CARS TO DRIVE ME HOME) 

8) BEGGING FOR MONEY, I MEAN, "FINANCE-SOURCING" RE: TURIN and post-ORD trip to either (i) NYC or (ii) some other place maybe UK-France or (iii) malacca, whatever, really

9) PUBLISH A BOOK J/K I HAVE NO TIME