Friday, July 29, 2005

in response to my previous post......

MY HAPPINESS WASINDEED A F**KING LIE!

happy that i'm happy but my happiness is just a lie

My head is thumping
I feel exhausted
my limbs are cramping
but i feel great =)

Did some last minute revision for history test and home ed. tests (lol) in the morning. I still can't believe I have been blogging for 4 days straight! That's super rare...heh!

Anyways the roadrun today was....in one word.....surreal. I couldn't believe I ran and clocked 13 mins +. that is good.

But before I forget!....
Congratulations Jas meii!
Congratulations Jonz!
Congratulations 911-ONG! LoL
Congratulations jaemengg!
Congratulations weiYao!
Congratulations YanMing!
Congratulations everyone else who completed the run/walk/slack. it was so...fun! Not =P

And my back hurts. woe is me!

Thursday, July 28, 2005

still not happy

i have a history test and home econs theory tomorrow and I FORGOT TO BRING MY TEXTBOOKS HOME !!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm panicking like crazy. OMGGGGG

I'm really turned off by teachers that flirt with students. Really. Pissed. Off. Like they act like 13 when they are 85.

AND i'm pissed with people that steal my identity. Like when you're expecting to be the top the class...as usual....and anticipating your name to be called.... as usual.... to your horror you hear a DIFFERENT person's name being called. and you get back your paper and realized you received the suckiest marks in the universe... and everyone is telling you not to be jealous while you are sitting there SEETHING with anger and jealousy feeling totally fucked up. especially when your social life is crumbling right there.

i'm going to my room to cry.

just kidding.

too depressed and busy to indulge in self-pity.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

sick of your company

"I'm annoyed today.
Why can't people contain their anger?
I'm sick of everyone spilling all over me.
If i wanted that to happen i would have became a counsellor.
but i didn't. aha!"
-me

I have news that I can't wait to tell other people but i can't because it will ruin the lives of two CLOSE friends. muhahhahahh!

*not that hyper*

Thursday, July 21, 2005

!

OMG! it wasn't me who wrote in the last post! It's my evil twin!

+001165

bad things today:
-realized I needed a truck to bring all my homework home and bring it back to school the next day.

good things today:
-flag-raising cancelled.

mood: passive

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Yay it's a special day!
It's....
Racial Harmony Day!

.... =(

I have totally zero concentration today.

I feel like eating cookies.

!!!!! forgot to do Home Econs. !!!!!
diediediediedie

stupid cookie label.
Maybe because of home econs I will never like cookies again.

oh just thought of something.
Does it irk you when there is ALWAYS someone out there who does things better than you. ALL the time! You are immediately invisible and overpowered when they stand next to you.
Instead of 'Hi Sam!' it's 'Hi xxx!' And you start to wish someone out there could anknowledge your presence, anyone but the teacher who would notice your ankle socks and stat to scream and yell because they are physically repulsive towards socks....especially ankles socks.... so they were sandals instead, geddit?

speaking of sandals, I desperately NEEED birkenstocks, you know, to try to go with my bohemian look. I mean, wristbands are now only fit to be seen hanging lifelessly on your school bag.

So here's my to-get list:
-iPod mini [DONE MUHAHA]
-new school bag (dcshoecousa)
-new sling/messenger bag (wants burberry but billabong/mambo/quiksilver would do
-new spectacle frames (Paul Frank)
-new watch (Paul Frank....already have swatch MUHAHA)
-von dutch T-shirt when I don't feel fat but want to flaunt some man-boobs =S . as if that would happen.
-B&O stereo ($5,000-$10,000 range) of course i'm only joking about this one. xD

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Hated Because of Good Qualities/Loved Because of Weaknesses

What can I say, I'm still feeling kinda sad...

I'm not supposed to be stressed....but now I am. How could this happen to me. wtf.

i hate certain people who enter the SL room. actually only two or three but i shan't tell......ugh.

My feet hurt from running during P.E.

My head feels heavy and a burden to my neck.

I feel crushed.


I
just
need
a
break.
give
me
a
break.
Please.
just
this
once.

how sad no one is here to share my burdens. i wish i could be as immature and carefree as some of my classmates again...
no one cares that I eat dinner, disguising my fears.
my sorrows.


how
sad.
i want to disappear. not many people will care anyway.


or suicidal tendencies will creep in.
they say it will hurt more than just you.
who cares
Not many people will remember me.
No one will feel a sense of loss.
The Judas Ischariots out there will auction off my things. If i have any.
It's difficult to be lonely and contented at the same time, I have realized.


I wish
People won't always think I'm there for them. All the time. 24/7.
I wish
People won't keep backstabbing their friends. talking behind their backs. advising me to treat them like sh*t. Hey, if you didn't have so many friends...like me.... you would at least treasure them.........

i shall pour out my feelings again in a week or so.

Monday, July 18, 2005

O_o

Someone please pinch me.

*_* during school i was so sleepy and during assembly jun da was like,

jd: oi. OI! you look very......

he never had a way with words.

Then came the racial harmony presentations...very cute, i thought. especially the movie thing about cross marriages? There's something you won't find in primary school. But i still felt zombified after sitting painfully at the assembly...squashed between people. It's almost claustrophobic until i nearly envied the SLs on duty.

Speaking of SLs..... *ahemahem* n e v e r m i n d only close friends will know.
(Like I have close-friends at all. Haha. i still love you guys ^^)

Oh we took a CLASS PHOTO with our new CLASS TEES and our CLASS MENTORS who had their own CLASS TEES! not fun, cuz everyone wasn't co operating and wei yeat was screaming at us (aiyohhhh i wish my voice didn't break so badly last time. long story) to stand in position. boohoo. then Miss Kuck
came in late cuz she had meeting. waaaaaahhhhhhhh so sad she missed the photo =( everything BUT the form teacher =P

Friday, July 15, 2005

super depressing things

I felt so extra today, esp. during choir. It was like, everyone was talking talking talking then I'm like sitting there feeling stupid because I'm not talking? And it really sucked. Yeah.

Nothing really happened today....just the usual things that bug me now and then. *offtopic* Like why are people so opinionated? I am so irked that there are some people in this world who are so petty and inconsiderate, slight opposition from others will always result in 'let's avoid him' etc. and i won't be able to say anything because I'm just so nice and caring......whatever.

Okay. I hope you can tell I'm NOT feeling very happy today, even though i'm supposed to fake it because I received the super ultra cool and ORANGEY yellow class tee. Yeahh! Or maybe my body isn't producing enough endomorphines (or something) to make me happy and content.

I'm really sorry but when I feel very pissy I decide to lash everything out on other people. =( boohoo for you

One thing I dislike alot about people. They always use their steads as status symbols.
Boy: DEARRRR...I lurve euuu...
Girl: You were always the one for mieeee, DEARRRR
Boy: Of course , DEARRR
*affectionaffectioncuddlecuddlehughugmuahmuah*
and they place their *uhem* THINGYS facing each other. Like oops sorry u're too young to enter =_=

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Some words of advice:
Just because you get to feel handsome/hero by wearing a badge/tie but that doesn't make others inferior to you. Sure you may be the cream of the crop *CLICHÉ* but who cares, you sure don't act like one.



Oh something happy I've realized....it's Sarah's birthday! =) Happy birthday Sarah! ^^

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Saturday, July 09, 2005

A Day.

What I did today:

(a) Woken up by sister
"sammmm can you lend me your watch etc.etc.?"
"*snore* y ee szss *snore*"

(b) Woken up by grandmother
"samuel... 9.30 already!!"
"wha-? n v m still got time "

(c) Breakfast
1/2 big mac + 1/2 big mac = 1 big mac.

(d) Lazes around
("sam go and bathe!" said Mum)

(e) Showers, changes clothes, gets out of house to go to sister's 'racial harmony fair' at her school.
iPod....check!
handphone....check!
wallet.....check!
bag..... not checked.
*runs to find bag*

(f) Racial Harmony Fair
Things i bought: ice-cream, 2 badges, bubble tea, aloe vera drink, chicken cutlet

(g) Go back home
temperature: one thousand degrees celcius
mood: lethargic

(h) slacks around

(i) goes to church for yf
topic: post-modernism and the Gospel

(j) dinner at home
-bittergourd
-japanese seaweed chicken
-forgot the rest.

(k) blogs
"I think, therefore I am."
"I am, therefore I blog."

Friday, July 08, 2005

like, yay!

i finally got my scanner working again! Can't wait to scan everything i can find in sight. lol i'm pathetic........

i'm planning on creating a blog-ish gallery blog. geddit? oh neverminddd. anyway i'll be uploading avatars/blinkies/whatevercrap there for your viewing please ^^ see i'm contributing to society! and i'm only 13! bow to me! etc.

oh no. my in grown toenail is growing painful again. argh. it was hurting like crazy during choir. funny i didn't notice until just now.

school was boring and uneventful, as usual. during home econs mrs teh kept *bleep*ing about the stooopit magnets like.... i can't describe it. ('wah see this magnet IS THE BEST ONE. later i'm going to give marks etc.etc.crasscrasscrass') but i thought it was the only scandalous thing that happened today. i'm stuck in my own boring little world as usual. sigh.

after that i ate a record of 8 pieces of french toast from my classmates. then i went to the library to try and do the perth trip journal but i hate journals aw tragic crycrycry.

and then after choir i ate another french toast. so now I have a total of 9 pieces of french toast. omg. thanks ALOT yiting =P