with all the fur of time

OK: so my IS "doesn't work" and I'm starting to agree, and thank you for asking how my ISes are but as of now there's no way of describing them politely, and I want a lobotomy because my cognitive faculties suck and my language sucks, my vocabulary is imprecise and I can't write like I used to after forcing every fucking thing into topic sentences like they're the secret to eternal life, I can't even do poetry like before now, I can't even enjoy reading, the world is controlled by text, I am stuck in this language game, nothing has meaning, especially all these stupid clumsy words.