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Do people really see through you when you feel unhappy?

And, an unhappy person is a selfish, discontent, grumpy and insensitive person. So forgive me if I become overtly sarcastic in a trying way. Gawd, I'm so tired of everything. Even though the Investiture is over (and was so great) I'm still feeling dead-beat-tired-tranquilized-lifeless-whatever. OK maybe A Maths would cheer me up. And by the way in case no one had noticed too, I want a Gold for the SYF again. And this time I'm aiming for Gold with honours. I remember the teacher in charge telling us whether to do what we really want, or what our purpose is. Sometimes it feels as if we're making leaps of improvement with every practice. Most of the time I feel shitty and demoralized. Obviously this is not what I want, and obviously all the competition and repetition of 3 songs over and over again for half a year is fucking with my head. I'm starting to become socialist, with all the stress and dissatisfaction, argh.

Oh well, no one cares la.